“…she stopped paying close attention to his words and when at red lights, examined the rain drops spattering on the windshield so intently that she almost stared right through them. Each drop seemed stuck on the glass, until another drop landed on it and they rolled down the window together, ending in a climactic splash.”
Sara: English major/Gender and Sexuality Studies minor, working at a nonprofit that gets young women ready for and interested in running for office/maybe soon applying to grad school, writer, clarinetist.
I post and reblog: things I think are pretty, things that intrigue me, things I'm a fan of, and things I care about.
Common themes include: books, writing, movies, more books, cozy beds, breakfasts, Doctor Who, Sherlock, feminist issues, and occasional pieces of my life.
Holy shit this is my life.
when i find myself in times of trouble, remus lupin comes to me speaking words of wisdom
Guys, I’m a little bit off today. Cute things and heroic children on my dash are making me tear up.
I mean, I generally cry very easily, but this is ridiculous.
The number of times I have been told to “grow a backbone” for crying/getting upset? Thousands.
I can’t recall being told something like that, but I do always feel crippling embarrassment and guilt around being visibly upset and/or crying in a way that I don’t for the emotions/displays associated with men.
And I mean, there are times when any particular emotional display might be inappropriate or overblown in ways that really should be embarrassing, but things like anger tend to often happen in ways that are traceable to acceptable reasons, while crying all too often gets written off as always unnecessary and overblown. Let’s not forget that crying is a totally normal response for tons of things and be a really useful expression, if only for catharsis.
between all the senior week activities, between being an emotional wreck, between trying to do all the senior week activities while being an emotional wreck, and between getting only about half the sleep I need thanks to mechanical thunking from the basement shaking my room, time for tumblr is going to be rare and short, unfortunately.
I should be back at full speed in about a week, though.
In which I got terrible sleep and now feel like shit:
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i want to print this out and give this to my mother.
I want to show this to everyone who has ever said any of those things to me.
When something that is very small and which should be easy to shrug off becomes enormous and difficult due to its emotional contexts and connections such that it becomes impossible to figure out a way to actually talk about it or do anything about it without sounding petty and stupid.
Result: lost it and had to collect myself before seminar yesterday, pulled myself together so that I did not lose it during lunch, only to lose it several times during the second hour of my work shift this afternoon so that I had to constantly collect myself and be frustrated that Pandora kept playing sad songs at exactly the wrong moment.